I saw that
the Waller family dug up another grave today. Yet again, they’ve sunk thousands
of dollars into the hope that they’ll find their son, Alex. Hope has proven to
be a costly endeavor for them. As I’ve been told, they’ve spent well over a
hundred thousand dollars on digging services alone. The story is nothing new.
It keeps repeating itself like a broken record.
It’s such an
odd sight to say the least. Every once in a blue moon, Nickolas and Judy Waller
return to our town with a team of highly paid professionals. A backhoe is
unloaded from the back of a truck. It creeps across the hallowed ground to the
area where a concrete statue of Saint Lawrence stands before 36 graves like a
lonely sentinel. Through the wind and rain, his facial expression never
changes. With a crucifix in the crook of one arm and the other raised to the
heavens, he stares solemnly upwards as if to offer the souls below him to the
Lord. Saint Lawrence shouldn’t be there. Those 36 graves shouldn’t be there.
That theatre fire should have never happened.
The beastly
machine revs up its motor and fills the air with cloud of diesel exhaust that’s
as dark as coal. Scoop by scoop, the machine slowly claws away at the earth
like a tired animal desperately trying to escape the trap. First the sod is
ripped from the ground and tossed to the side. Soon after, a few bucketful’s of
top soil is piled up alongside the grave before another pile is made for the
caramel-brown clay.
While the
digging happens, Nick and Judy stand close to each other while quietly praying
and singing Hallelujah in hopes that
this hole will be the last they will ever have to excavate. Suddenly, the
machine pulls up a unique mixture of earth; one that is composed of clay and
soil that is black as pitch, and rich with decay. The hired men now know that
their work with the machine is done for the time being as they send it crawling
away from the grave.
From there,
the men put on pairs of rubber overalls and gloves; and respirators on their
faces. They then descend into the hole with their shovels. Like a volcanic
eruption, scoops of soil spew from the hole until the dull, yet loud sound of
metal sticking wood is heard. At a slower pace, dirt continues to fling from
the open grave. In time, one of the men climbs out of the hole and retrieves a
bundle of rope from the truck. He tosses the rope down and within minutes, the
backhoe roars back to life. The rope is then attached to the machine’s arm.
With the utmost care and skill by the operator, the old rotting casket is hoisted
out of the ground.
The old
wooden box is placed off to the side of the hole and is quickly covered by a
sheet of tarpaulin to conceal it from curious eyes. Once more, the men descend
back down into the hole and continue to carefully dig for several hours. Just
like all the other times, the men run out of black soil and find only clay the
deeper they go; indicating that what they are looking for isn’t there. Judy in
a desperate plea yells to them, “Please keep digging! I know my baby is in
there! You just have to go a little deeper!” Just to satisfy her, the men keep
on with their work until the sun begins to descend. But as the sun fades away,
so too does the spark of hope in both Judy and Nickolas.
When the
hole has been dug far below a reasonable depth, it is deemed as a failed
venture. The men climb out of the grave and replace the casket and soil in the
same order they removed it. The backhoe is loaded onto the truck, the men hand
the Wallers a business card, say their condolences, and then drive away. Yet,
Nickolas and Judy remain at the graveyard until it is too dark for comfort.
They do not gaze upon the grave they have dug that day, rather, they stare with
a strange mixture of sorrow and hope at the grave that lies next to it, just
waiting to be exhumed. They walk away from the matter for now, while Saint
Lawrence remains just as still as before.
The grave
that was dug up today was that of Jack Davidson. As I’ve been told, his mother
and father finally gave in when the Wallers offered them 400,000 dollars. Now
that I think about it, they were actually going to settle for 350,000, but that
changed. Just before Paul Davidson was about to sign the papers, Judy made the
comment that there was a silver-lining to the loss of his son. When Paul asked
her to explain, she said that Paul and the others were lucky that she and her
husband had to pay to search the graves of their loved ones. She went on to say
that it was better than winning the lottery.
The price
immediately jumped to 400,000 dollars.
I’m actually
surprised that the Davidsons gave in. They always said that they weren’t going
to play the Waller’s little game. They said that the way the Wallers had it set
up was so callus and disgraceful, that it bordered on insults. You see, the
Davidsons may have been offered 400,000 dollars, but that doesn’t mean they
would actually receive 400,000 dollars. The Wallers have their contracts set up
in a way where they would only have to pay if their son is found in the
questioned grave. Now that I think about, Judy’s comparison to a lottery is actually quite fitting. The
only gambit that the unwilling players had to wager was a son, brother, father,
mother, or daughter.
I’ve paid
close attention to this game over the last two decades. The first family that
played the game were the Jacksons. Ever since Harold Jackson died, the family
struggled to make ends meet. They sold out for 2,000 dollars, if I remember
correctly. I don’t think they would have done it if they weren’t so desperate
for money at the time. Of course, Alex wasn’t found in Harold’s grave, and the
Jacksons never received any sort of prize. As the laws of probability dictated,
the original odds were 1 in 36, but after Harold was exhumed, they became 1 in
35. Henceforth, the cash prize went up slightly when the people around here
realized that the graves of their respective loved ones could be the lucky one.
As the years went by and the odds increased, so too did the price.
Around these
parts, the excavation and the desecration of the grave is viewed as one and the
same despite the good intentions behind it; but that’s not to say the people
around here won’t go against their morals when a big wad of cash is waved under
their noses. I think it’s a dirty rotten shame that the Davidsons sold out.
Their son Jack was far more deserving of a peaceful slumber than having his
corpse pulled out of the ground. He was a fine young man. As a matter of fact,
there was once a time when I looked forward to calling him my son-in-law. But
that fire burned away the pages of the story that had yet to be written.
I can still
recall that fire now as I saw it over twenty years ago. It was an average night
and I was just about to fall asleep when I heard the sirens wailing past my
house. Out of panic and curiosity, I went to the kitchen window and saw that
the theater down the street was engulfed in flames. I quickly put on my shoes
and sprinted towards the blaze. All I could do was watch helplessly as the
flames climbed higher into the night.
The firemen
wasted no time in connecting their hoses to the hydrants. Despite their loud
shouts, I could hear the sound of screaming coming from inside of the theatre.
As the water began to spray onto the fire, a team of the firemen sprinted into
the building with their axes in hand.
After a few
minutes, they pulled the first person out of the building. His name was Derek
Svenold. He was caked in soot; and burns covered a large portion of his body.
He looked lifeless as they laid him down on the grass across the street. All I
could do was watch with shock. Until then, I’d never seen a dead body, but the
horror of it all only became worse as the firemen laid more people next to him.
The others had not faired to so well. Unlike Derek, their bodies where charred
black and were unidentifiable in the darkness.
The smell
was the worse. Never before had I smelled burnt flesh. The smell in and of
itself wasn’t what bothered me. It was the idea that my nose was inhaling the
essence of a dead body. I held my nightshirt over my nose to block it out while
the people around me fled away from the scene feeling too sick to take much
more.
Before the
ambulance arrived, they had 25 bodies laid out on the grass. It was then I saw
something that I can only describe as a miracle. Derek, the man that I assumed
was dead, suddenly sat up in a fit of violent coughing. His eyes first locked
onto the fire across the street. I saw the way they became wider and wider as
the refection of the flames glinted off of them. He put his hands on his face,
then his chest, and finally his legs. Without words, I knew he was in disbelief
as to how he got away from the fire, and how he could be alive. He then turned
his head and looked down at one of the charred corpses next to him.
He touched
the flaky skin, pressed his fingers into it, and said, “Hey, ‘you alright?”
When his question went unanswered, he began to gently shake the body. “Hey,
wake up.” He said. I could see the realization starting to sink in just as the
ambulance arrived. The paramedics quickly noticed him and helped him to his
feet. Derek fought against them. He screamed while pointing his finger at the
corpses, “What about them? What about my friends? What about my sister?”
As they put
Derek in the back of the vehicle, the firemen carried even more bodies out, all
36 of them.
The sights
and sounds of that night severely damaged Derek. Not only were parts of his
skin disfigured, so too was his soul. He was prescribed pain killers for his
recovery and quickly became addicted to them. I supposed the chemicals helped
to fill a void that was burned away, if only temporary.
I wanted to
help Derek anyway I could in the months that followed. I’m not a specialist in
mental health, but I know that lending an ear can make a world of difference.
With a great deal of compassion and respect, I asked him what it was like. I
asked him how he felt about it all. Oddly enough, he told me a story that
seemingly had nothing to do with fire at all, but after telling me I realized it had everything to do with it.
When he was
only a child, one of his chores was to empty the mouse trap in his father’s
garage. It was one of those live-traps; the kind that is made from galvanized
steel and has little air holes punched into it. The idea behind these traps is
to catch multiple mice without having to constantly reset it. Eventually, the
mice could be taken out into the wild and humanely let go. At least, that’s
what the advertisers sell it as. Instead, most people like Derek’s father have
a rope tied to the trap so that it can easily be recovered from a body of
water.
That was
Derek’s duty. Once a week he would take the trap down to the river and toss it
into the water. He said that he remembered the way the mice would squeal and
thrash around as the trap sank into the river. Their little claws would scratch
against the metal as every single one of them fought to keep their mouths in
the disappearing air pocket. He said it would take about ten minutes before the
air bubbles would stop coming up. When the job was done, he’d pull the trap out
of the water, dump the dead mice, and put it back in the garage.
At the end
of this little story, Derek said, “That’s what it was like to be stuck in that
fire. Everyone in there was trying to claw their way out. People were being
stepped over. Bodies were washed in flames. All I could do was watch as the
people around dropped, one, by, one.”
Trying to be
helpful, I told him, “There’s a reason why you survived Derek.”
He then gave
me a look that bordered on annoyance and anger, “That’s what everyone tells me.
I don’t know why in the hell I should have lived while the others died. I’ve talked to therapists, preachers, old
folks, and people like you. You all tell me that I have a purpose in life. You
all tell me that there’s a reason I lived, but none of you can tell me why.
“I’m
surrounded by blind people. They tell me that I need to find the light switch,
but the damned light switch isn’t even there. Maybe I’ve been given the gift of
life. If I had it my way, I’d give it to someone else. I sure as hell don’t
know what to do with it.”
It was only
a couple of months after our conversation that Derek overdosed on pain meds.
Unlike the others that died in the fire, Derek’s passing went quietly. The last
victim of a disaster is rarely mentioned after all?
I don’t think that he would have wanted any
recognition either. I remember how much it tore him up to see the aftermath of
the fire being played over and over again on the news. Indeed our little town
had its fifteen minutes of fame. Albeit the notoriety was neither asked for nor
desired. Especially when our fifteen minutes turned to an hour, a day, a week,
a month, and finally, a year.
It wasn’t
the fire that gripped the attention of the newsmen. Oh no. They focused on the
one person that didn’t die in the
fire; and that person certainly wasn’t Derek. I suppose it’s noteworthy when
the son of a wealthy family goes missing without a trace. That son was Alex;
son of Nickolas and Judy Waller. And son
of a bitch if you listen closely to the hushed whispers around town.
There really
isn’t much to say about Alex. He was a college kid that took up residence in
our town for two summers. It seemed like his favorite past-time was to indulge
in the fiery burn of whiskey, as his favorite haunt was the local bar. As sure
as a dew covered flower finds the morning sun, nighttime would find Alex
wasting away in a corner booth.
You could
almost set your watch by his routine. At around 8 o’clock every night, he’d
leave his apartment above Nix’s Garage. He’d venture past the Old Catholic
church, the graveyard, two blocks of homes, the theater, and would finally end
up at the bar. When last call came at two in the morning, he’d make the same
journey back, only in reverse; while stumbling and staggering the entire way.
This fact
was well known and was quietly talked of as gossip amongst ourselves when he
was out of earshot. Normally, this type of behavior is overlooked by us
townsfolk. After all, we already have our fair share of bottle dwelling
persons. Like the Bremar brothers; the proud veterans that proudly show their
battle scars from the war, even if the wounds are in places where no one wants
to look. Even our mayor keeps himself in good spirits. An outsider might see
this as a problem, but we actually get a sense of safely from it. I mean, the
man can hardly find the wallet in his own pocket, let alone someone else’s.
The
complaints made about Alex’s drinking habits were not the main issue. It was just
another thing to talk about with the spicy indulgence of gossip. There were
other things about Alex we did not take kindly to. For the sake of politeness,
I will not say where Alex hailed from, but I will say that his upbringing did
not correlate with our own.
As I
remember Alex, all I can recall is a snide young man that refused to adapt to
the long standing traditions of our little social order. These arbitrary social
laws have never been formally written, bear no legal standing, but are heavily
instilled by the wrath of a father’s belt. I’m led to believe that the Waller’s
idea of normalcy finds ours backwards and barbaric.
These are
the three basic laws of our little culture:
Never touch
another man’s money.
Never touch
another man’s tools.
And never
touch another man’s woman; whether it be his wife or his daughter.
Alex was the
worst offender of the third. As the way it is seen around here, the best way to
deal with a feral dog like Alex is to drag it into the back alley and thrash it
around until it scurries away with its tail between its legs. The method behind
the madness usually works. I say usually because it certainly had no effect on
Alex. As I recall, there was more than a few times that Alex made a lewd pass
towards one of the local girls, only to have it met with the fury of the lady’s
brother, father, or the like.
For those
two summers he was with us, this behavior did not change, but it went away
immediately after he vanished without a trace. I don’t think the general public
really noticed his absence at first. That theater fire clouded every mind like
a morning mist looming over the harbor before the storm.
I don’t
think anyone can be blamed for not noticing. It’s especially sobering to see 36
graves being dug in advance for the ones you knew. 36 may seem like a small
number in and of itself, but when it comes to the matter of death, it’s a lot.
I remember
watching all 36 of those graves being dug. The first two or three didn’t seem
like a big deal; they were just holes. But to see so many blurred the lines of
reality. There was so much dirt scattered around that each individual hole
seemed to blend in with the other. In a way, it reminded me of a mass grave
that was dug in the heat of war. The only things missing were the multitude of
tangled, bloated corpses, and a dusting of lye.
Through all
the blinding chaos the fire brought, there were still two people that noticed
Alex’s disappearance even though they were a long plane ride away. Those people
were his parents, Nicholas and Judy. As mothers and fathers usually do, they
called and sent Alex letters on a weekly basis. When Alex failed to return
either of these things for two weeks, they became suspicious. Then after a
month, they dreaded the reasons why.
The Wallers
sent our sheriff to check on Alex at his apartment. After several knocks on the
door at several different times during the day without a reply, the sheriff had
the landlord open the door. What they found of course was nothing out of the
ordinary. There were no signs of Alex or any sinister hints to his whereabouts.
It simply looked like Alex stepped away from his home for a while and could
return at any moment, but he never came back.
Of course
this was all newsworthy material and it didn’t take long for a flood of
volunteers to come search for him. For weeks they walked in a line through the
fields and woods with no results. These searches soon stopped when Janette
Thomas revealed what she allegedly saw one night.
What Janette
had to say about the matter completely trumped all the theories to Alex’s
whereabouts. The story itself is shaky at best, but it’s the one the Wallers
believe beyond a shadow of a doubt to be true. She supposedly saw Alex being
murdered with her own eyes.
According to
her, it happened two days after the theater fire. She like many others took to
the bar after the horrible disaster. Many sorrows were drowned that night,
including her own. You see, she lost a nephew in the fire, and the presence of
alcohol and good company helped heal the wound.
She
remembered going outside to have a cigarette when she saw Alex strolling along
on the sidewalk. He was clearly intoxicated like usual. The sight would have
been brushed off had it not been for a particularly haunting detail. She saw a
figure behind Alex as he walked. Alex was completely unaware of it too. While
Alex sang a happy song off-key, the person skulked ever so carefully behind
him, occasionally ducking into alleyways when the opportunity presented itself.
The person
followed Alex for several minutes until they passed by the graveyard. The
mysterious figure than veered into the darkness of the yard where the 36 graves
were dug in preparation for the next day’s massive burial.
Just when it
was thought that the person had long since left Alex alone, the figure suddenly
burst from the shadows of the graveyard. He or she was brandishing a shovel.
There was not a word spoken between the two, save for the brief scream made by
Alex before being struck across the head with the shovel. The blow knocked the
young man over and he was motionless, but it didn’t end there. The assailant
continued to mercilessly beat Alex with the shovel over and over again.
When at
last, the killer seemed exhausted, Janette quite clearly saw Alex being drug
into the darkness of the graveyard. Beyond that, no one is sure what happened.
This all led to a very thrilling theory made by Janette. She assumed that Alex
was buried in one of the already open graves. It made perfect sense too. All
the killer would have to do was dig one of the holes a little deeper, throw the
body in, and cover it up with just a little bit of dirt. Then the next day, a
casket would have been laid over the body, buried, and no one would ever be the
wiser.
It was a
good theory. It was a perfect theory. Unfortunately, Janette’s credibility was
quickly called into question. You see, Janette is one of our more colorful
residents. The poor woman just hasn’t been the same ever since her husband got
hit by that train back in ‘73.
Ever since
then, she’s been spinning these wild yarns about the most ridiculous things.
She’s gone on record that she’s been abducted and probed by aliens. She claims
to have a time machine in her basement; but refuses to show anyone because
she’s afraid the Military Industrial Complex of the Antarctic Elephant Corps
will have her eliminated. And to top it all off, she didn’t bother to tell
anyone about what she saw that night until three months after it happened.
The lawmen
may not have given her account much credence, but the Wallers sure did. They
believed every word Janette told them, even if the story varied slightly with
every retelling. Henceforth, the Wallers became absolutely convinced that their
son was buried beneath one of the caskets where Saint Lawrence stands guard. It
did make perfect sense after all?
There was
just one problem. Neither the Wallers, nor Janette knew which grave it was.
Thus, as things go, the graveyard lottery was born. The Jackson family was the
first to give in at $2,000. The casket was dug up and nothing was found. They
then moved on to the plot of Jeff Thomas and his surviving family didn’t budge
until they were offered $30,000. The price just kept going up from there on
out. I would have never imagined that the Wallers would have ever offered a
family like the Davidsons $400,000. There’s been whispers going around town as
to how much the Wallers will offer to dig up that one last grave. The one that
has been left untouched for the past 20 years.
Some say
they will offer a million before a deal is made, and others argue that they
will never make an offer considering that their finances have since gone to
hell. But, that’s been said before and it’s been proven to be false. I think
it’s just so strange how people are willing to donate so freely to such silly
causes. Then again, Nicholas Waller is a salesman by trade and selling such a
thing just comes natural.
I remember
when he was interviewed on the news. He talked about how his son made the
Dean’s list for three straight years. They showed a lot of pictures of Alex
when was just a little boy; still wet behind the ears and shitting in diapers.
You know, the usual bullshit? It makes me wonder if the Wallers would have
stopped looking for their son if they knew what John Leroy knows. I’ll go out
on a limb to say that they’d be ashamed of Alex if they knew his dirty little
secret. John has only told this little tidbit of information to a select few
people. And when I say a select few, I mean a very select few. As far as I know, maybe four people know about
this, myself included.
On the night
the theater burned down, John came home from work at nine like he usually does;
and like usual, he gave himself a quick shower and went to bed. Sometime during
the night he got out of bed to use the toilet. As he walked past his kitchen
window, he saw Alex strolling along with a cigarette in his mouth, and a
drunken sway in his step. When Alex passed by the theater, he tossed his
cigarette butt into the dumpster next the theater. John didn’t think much of it
at that point in time.
When he finished
relieving himself, he walked back to the kitchen to get a glass of water. When
he looked out of the window, he saw that not only was the dumpster on fire, but
so too was the theater.
Yes, Alex
Waller was responsible for the death of 36 people. The little shit would have
gotten away with it too, but luckily someone had the good sense to smack the
little bastard across the head with a shovel. If you ask me, justice was
served.
Come to
think of it, I’ve probably said a little too much. You can blame it all on the
booze. I’ve been soaking in it ever since the fire. I tell you what, you don’t
know shit until you’ve inhaled the charred flesh of the ones you loved. You
don’t know how those screams still ring my ears. You don’t know a damn thing.
Am I a
little upset?
No.
I’m
absolutely furious.
Alex knew
what he did! I could see it on his face! I could see it in his eyes! He looked
like a pathetic little child fearing the belt! I know what that look is! I’ve
seen it in my own child’s face for God’s sake! I saw it on her beautiful face!
I saw it in her beautiful blue eyes!
And those
damned Wallers had the nerve to tell us that there was a silver lining to our loss. They told us that we were lucky! We were
lucky that they had to pay to dig up
our own! They told us that it was better than winning the lottery! I don’t care
how much money they offer, I’m not going to play their little game! And to hell
with those degenerates that sold the caskets of their family! Is there no
decency left in this world?
I’ve seen
the way the town is looking at me! Every eye is looking at me! They whisper to
themselves! They want to know what the final jackpot will be! The filthy rats!
Those filthy traitors!
I’ll show
them! I’ll show them all! I’ll show them like I showed Alex! I’ll show them
what it’s like to have something forever taken from them! Oh God, it will be so
satisfying to see the look on their faces when I turn them down! Why should
their child have gotten to live when my own died?
Maybe then
they’ll know what it’s like to be living in this nightmare! Maybe then they’ll
know what it’s like to have a granite slab and a story that was never written!
It doesn’t matter
if they have all the money in the world! I will not let them disturb my
daughter’s rest!
The winner already lost it all!
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